Friday 27 November, 2009. (Everybody's tired and grumpy)
5.00pm. Decided to take the kids for a walk down the waterfront. The kick is they are on their bikes so we are not stopping every 20 paces and I have to hurry to catch up with them or at least keep them in my sight. Still did a bit of stopping and had a big rest in the middle when they were at the park.
Very windy down the waterfront but very cool considering hot day. So spoilt living so close to the bay.
Friday, November 27, 2009
Day 11
Thursday 26 November, 2009. (Trying to stay awake for the "Rush" series final. Damn lost that fight)
Well did not exercise today. Uh oh you think. Well I actually went to Currumbin Wildlife Sanctuary with a friend of mine and our children. We did so much walking all day and the kids had a wonderful time. We saw most of it and a lot of it we walked until the kids just wanted to be on the train ride all the time. We had to be there by 8am. so had to wake kids and get organised super early. I wasn't the fatest but glad that I started walking so used to it for this and not holding everybody up.
Well did not exercise today. Uh oh you think. Well I actually went to Currumbin Wildlife Sanctuary with a friend of mine and our children. We did so much walking all day and the kids had a wonderful time. We saw most of it and a lot of it we walked until the kids just wanted to be on the train ride all the time. We had to be there by 8am. so had to wake kids and get organised super early. I wasn't the fatest but glad that I started walking so used to it for this and not holding everybody up.
Day 10
Wednesday 24 November, 2009. (Bloody exhausted)
Did not go for walk today. Been up since 4.30 am. Had to do husbands ears (drops into sore ears) as he was leaving at 4.30am. Had meeting tonight that starts at 7pm. Hoping husband would get home in time but did not get home till 8.30pm because of the Pearl Jam concert.
Have to pack for tomorrow anyway and then get to bed early.
Confession time: Slept really well considering no walk today.
Did not go for walk today. Been up since 4.30 am. Had to do husbands ears (drops into sore ears) as he was leaving at 4.30am. Had meeting tonight that starts at 7pm. Hoping husband would get home in time but did not get home till 8.30pm because of the Pearl Jam concert.
Have to pack for tomorrow anyway and then get to bed early.
Confession time: Slept really well considering no walk today.
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
Day 9
Tuesday 24 November, 2009. (still tired and hating exercise)
7.55pm. Start on punisher but it squeaks to loudly for husband to hear TV so after 3 minutes of "Is it bothering you", "No honey keep going", while he keeps putting the sound up and can't hear any of the movie "Harry Potter" I announce "I'll go for a walk". So down to the waterfront I go and then realise that the final "Packed to the Rafters" is on at 8.30pm. So walk a lot faster. Come home and shower and husbands movie is nearly finished. Missed first 20 minutes of show.
What do you mean a double episode of "Private Practice", I can't stay awake will 11.30pm. Manage to stay up till 11pm.
Husband stayed home recuperating from Christmas Tree job and enjoyed the sleep in. I took kids to pool because not exhausted enough and to give husband more sleep time. God I'm a saint.
Confession time: still felt a bit down at being the fatest as the pool today but spent the whole time playing with the children and bonding more than just watching from sidelines like most mums there.
7.55pm. Start on punisher but it squeaks to loudly for husband to hear TV so after 3 minutes of "Is it bothering you", "No honey keep going", while he keeps putting the sound up and can't hear any of the movie "Harry Potter" I announce "I'll go for a walk". So down to the waterfront I go and then realise that the final "Packed to the Rafters" is on at 8.30pm. So walk a lot faster. Come home and shower and husbands movie is nearly finished. Missed first 20 minutes of show.
What do you mean a double episode of "Private Practice", I can't stay awake will 11.30pm. Manage to stay up till 11pm.
Husband stayed home recuperating from Christmas Tree job and enjoyed the sleep in. I took kids to pool because not exhausted enough and to give husband more sleep time. God I'm a saint.
Confession time: still felt a bit down at being the fatest as the pool today but spent the whole time playing with the children and bonding more than just watching from sidelines like most mums there.
Day 8
Monday 23 November (123.1 kgs)
7.50pm The punisher. What can I say? I loath exercising on the damn thing sweating up a storm, not being able to hear a damn thing on the TV over my heavy breathing and the squeaking of my shoes and the punisher which has a weight limit of 120 kgs.
The poor machine has been used a handful of times in the past 2 years and has to put up with more weight than it supposed to. Had today by myself and managed to shave legs yippee!!! Husband gone to Christmas Tree again in scorching heat and starting to look a bit frazzled. 56 hrs in 4 days so far.
Confession time: The last 2 minutes of my half hour exercise was pretty pathetic and stopping constantly to check on my watch.
7.50pm The punisher. What can I say? I loath exercising on the damn thing sweating up a storm, not being able to hear a damn thing on the TV over my heavy breathing and the squeaking of my shoes and the punisher which has a weight limit of 120 kgs.
The poor machine has been used a handful of times in the past 2 years and has to put up with more weight than it supposed to. Had today by myself and managed to shave legs yippee!!! Husband gone to Christmas Tree again in scorching heat and starting to look a bit frazzled. 56 hrs in 4 days so far.
Confession time: The last 2 minutes of my half hour exercise was pretty pathetic and stopping constantly to check on my watch.
Monday, November 23, 2009
Day 7
Sunday 22nd November (still morbidly obese and self absorbed)
8.47pm Yes very late, took a while to settle daughter tonight and got home late to start with from the Grandparents house. Husband is still putting up the christmas tree in town and not seeing much of him yet. Did 25 minutes on the punisher (trainer) and 5 mins in yard walking one way and waddling fast (my attempt to jog) back the other way. It was cooler outside and enjoyed it more. Kids were definately out by then. Finished at 9.20pm, showered and fell asleep on lounge, woke up and put myself in bed. Need more sleep and this heatwave is killing me.
Note to self: SHAVE YOUR LEGS KAREN.
8.47pm Yes very late, took a while to settle daughter tonight and got home late to start with from the Grandparents house. Husband is still putting up the christmas tree in town and not seeing much of him yet. Did 25 minutes on the punisher (trainer) and 5 mins in yard walking one way and waddling fast (my attempt to jog) back the other way. It was cooler outside and enjoyed it more. Kids were definately out by then. Finished at 9.20pm, showered and fell asleep on lounge, woke up and put myself in bed. Need more sleep and this heatwave is killing me.
Note to self: SHAVE YOUR LEGS KAREN.
Day 6
Don't judge it's a day of rest so go away and rest. Watched Harry Potter's latest movie on DVD.....good.
Friday, November 20, 2009
Day 5
Friday 20th November, 2009. Still morbidly obese.
8.17pm. Right, kids fed and in bed, husband at work puting up huge Christmas tree in city. The punisher and I have a date. I'm a little sun burnt on back and arms and chest top, and we are in the middle of a heat wave and I'm exhausted from swimming this morning and exercising in the pool, but rather surprising I found the half hour exercising not so bad. That's right not so bad. It's a lot easier on feet and I recovered much faster than the last four days and I even went the extra 5 mins. plus going faster a couple of times.
It was hard swimming today. There was a playgroup and a whole lot of yummy mummies there and I was the fattest. Still I noticed that I really played with my two children throughout the 90 minutes we were there while they mainly stayed on the layabouts talking. Won't be long until I will no longer be the fattest anywhere.
Confession 3: I had lost 33 Kilos before. I lost my first husband to a car accident and found myself a widow at 29 years, no kids, fat and moving in with my mother until the courts had settled. So I joined a gym and got myself a personal trainer. It was great!! I would go to this mangy gym where only tough guys and went at night just before closing time. You see not only was I fat but I have terrible psoriasis on my legs. (Psoriasis is a skin condition that is not contagious) So I was always the fattest but I worked my butt off and in the end the guys all accepted me and greeted me because I was trying. Then another fatty joined the gym and I was the happiest of all. I was no longer the fattest in the club. See that is how us fatties think.
Note to self: Must shave legs more regularly especially before swimming. Christ I will almost need a chainsaw for this weeks job.
8.17pm. Right, kids fed and in bed, husband at work puting up huge Christmas tree in city. The punisher and I have a date. I'm a little sun burnt on back and arms and chest top, and we are in the middle of a heat wave and I'm exhausted from swimming this morning and exercising in the pool, but rather surprising I found the half hour exercising not so bad. That's right not so bad. It's a lot easier on feet and I recovered much faster than the last four days and I even went the extra 5 mins. plus going faster a couple of times.
It was hard swimming today. There was a playgroup and a whole lot of yummy mummies there and I was the fattest. Still I noticed that I really played with my two children throughout the 90 minutes we were there while they mainly stayed on the layabouts talking. Won't be long until I will no longer be the fattest anywhere.
Confession 3: I had lost 33 Kilos before. I lost my first husband to a car accident and found myself a widow at 29 years, no kids, fat and moving in with my mother until the courts had settled. So I joined a gym and got myself a personal trainer. It was great!! I would go to this mangy gym where only tough guys and went at night just before closing time. You see not only was I fat but I have terrible psoriasis on my legs. (Psoriasis is a skin condition that is not contagious) So I was always the fattest but I worked my butt off and in the end the guys all accepted me and greeted me because I was trying. Then another fatty joined the gym and I was the happiest of all. I was no longer the fattest in the club. See that is how us fatties think.
Note to self: Must shave legs more regularly especially before swimming. Christ I will almost need a chainsaw for this weeks job.
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
Day 4
Thursday 19th November. Not telling weight today aarrrhh!!!!
4.45pm. Aha you say earlier than normal. Well that's because husband has put spanner in works of walking plan. He is working very late for the next 3 nights putting up the Christmas Tree in town square. The big one for whole city and it takes over 3 days to put it up. Talk about Christmas spirit. It's a bit ironic that my husband puts the tree up and down for the past 2 years as he hates Christmas (has to spend money in crowded shopping centre) and hates even more Christmas lights. I think it's karma because he doesn't do any Christmas shopping at all. I even buy my own present, wrap it and make him give it to me with him complaining about the cost of wrapping paper. If you haven't guessed by now he is a grumbly bum. Apparently men get grumpier as they get older, I can't wait..........
So this means I will have to use the punisher!!!!! Will let you know how I go. If you don't hear from me that means I took a heart attack.
Confession 2: I own a punisher and don't use it. One mother's day in May a couple of years back I saw this exercise machine a walker but the legs peddle around, (will take photo one day) on special at Target and told husband that I needed to lose weight (sound familiar) and would need to buy this machine. Well I got it and husband put it together. I couldn't wait to get on the beautiful thing. 2 minutes later clutching chest and gasping for air decided this machine was just too damn hard for fatties like me and I needed to get fit walking before I could use it. I did use it a bit and got to 15 minutes but kids told me to quit it because they couldn't hear the TV over my breathing.
7.51pm Kids are in bed threatened if they come out no swimming tomorrow and now I'm on the punisher and trying to watch "Glee" at the same time. Bit hard to get the whole concept while gasping for breath. Have to open the windows next to me and actually break a sweat on back of neck. 25 mins later get off machine and wobble in lounge room till found my footing. Husband just pulls up so quickly jump in the shower. He takes one look at me and quite astoundingly asks "Did you go for a walk". I said "Of course". He looks angry "Did you leave the kids here alone?". "Well I drugged them so they would not wake up", I replied and then I could not hold it in any longer and started to laugh. I told him the truth. "Not funny, Karen and you should only start with 10 minutes on that thing you could have had a heart attack your face is so red" says my husband with such concern in his face. (in my dreams) Well after getting dressed and sitting down I agree with my beloved that maybe I should have started with only 10 mins. Will sleep really well I imagine.
4.45pm. Aha you say earlier than normal. Well that's because husband has put spanner in works of walking plan. He is working very late for the next 3 nights putting up the Christmas Tree in town square. The big one for whole city and it takes over 3 days to put it up. Talk about Christmas spirit. It's a bit ironic that my husband puts the tree up and down for the past 2 years as he hates Christmas (has to spend money in crowded shopping centre) and hates even more Christmas lights. I think it's karma because he doesn't do any Christmas shopping at all. I even buy my own present, wrap it and make him give it to me with him complaining about the cost of wrapping paper. If you haven't guessed by now he is a grumbly bum. Apparently men get grumpier as they get older, I can't wait..........
So this means I will have to use the punisher!!!!! Will let you know how I go. If you don't hear from me that means I took a heart attack.
Confession 2: I own a punisher and don't use it. One mother's day in May a couple of years back I saw this exercise machine a walker but the legs peddle around, (will take photo one day) on special at Target and told husband that I needed to lose weight (sound familiar) and would need to buy this machine. Well I got it and husband put it together. I couldn't wait to get on the beautiful thing. 2 minutes later clutching chest and gasping for air decided this machine was just too damn hard for fatties like me and I needed to get fit walking before I could use it. I did use it a bit and got to 15 minutes but kids told me to quit it because they couldn't hear the TV over my breathing.
7.51pm Kids are in bed threatened if they come out no swimming tomorrow and now I'm on the punisher and trying to watch "Glee" at the same time. Bit hard to get the whole concept while gasping for breath. Have to open the windows next to me and actually break a sweat on back of neck. 25 mins later get off machine and wobble in lounge room till found my footing. Husband just pulls up so quickly jump in the shower. He takes one look at me and quite astoundingly asks "Did you go for a walk". I said "Of course". He looks angry "Did you leave the kids here alone?". "Well I drugged them so they would not wake up", I replied and then I could not hold it in any longer and started to laugh. I told him the truth. "Not funny, Karen and you should only start with 10 minutes on that thing you could have had a heart attack your face is so red" says my husband with such concern in his face. (in my dreams) Well after getting dressed and sitting down I agree with my beloved that maybe I should have started with only 10 mins. Will sleep really well I imagine.
Day 3
Wednesday 18th November. (122.7 kgs) (starting to feel pain in muscles)
6.30pm. Oh my God I still have muscles left and they are starting to hurt. Can't believe that I have managed to lose weight so fast but have not been snacking to much as the walk is a waste if I do. It's funny that when you start exercising you don't want to eat as much. Husband came home early today so got to laze around with him while the kids were napping. He admitted that he was surprised and proud that I walked in that storm last night. Well respect is a good start. Damn it I'm proud of myself. Go girl. Feet not so bad tonight.
Confession 1: My name is Karen and I'm a chocoholic. No really. I used to spend over $40.00 a week on chocolate alone. I could not get enough and I'm not talking bars either I'm talking full big family blocks per meal time for my 4th meal after dinner every night. When I got up one day and ate full block for breakfast I realised I had a problem. So I gave it up for 2 years. Now it would have helped if I drinked, smoked or at least drank coffee but no I don't have those other vices. (Actually all of them are my husbands vices and I have to take the higher road and not go there just for brownie points) So I ate marshmallows, only Allens and a lot of them. If you put them in the freezer they last longer in your mouth. Try it you love them. Then I went to white chocolate. Now none of these felt like chocolate on our tongue but they gave me the sugar high I was desperate for when I ate the chocolate. Still working on sugar high but have gone back to chocolate in very small doses.
Note to self: Clean house mother comes to visit early tomorrow morning. Wash the thick socks. Moisture face mask couldn't hurt either oh and "Heroes" new season has started tonight.
6.30pm. Oh my God I still have muscles left and they are starting to hurt. Can't believe that I have managed to lose weight so fast but have not been snacking to much as the walk is a waste if I do. It's funny that when you start exercising you don't want to eat as much. Husband came home early today so got to laze around with him while the kids were napping. He admitted that he was surprised and proud that I walked in that storm last night. Well respect is a good start. Damn it I'm proud of myself. Go girl. Feet not so bad tonight.
Confession 1: My name is Karen and I'm a chocoholic. No really. I used to spend over $40.00 a week on chocolate alone. I could not get enough and I'm not talking bars either I'm talking full big family blocks per meal time for my 4th meal after dinner every night. When I got up one day and ate full block for breakfast I realised I had a problem. So I gave it up for 2 years. Now it would have helped if I drinked, smoked or at least drank coffee but no I don't have those other vices. (Actually all of them are my husbands vices and I have to take the higher road and not go there just for brownie points) So I ate marshmallows, only Allens and a lot of them. If you put them in the freezer they last longer in your mouth. Try it you love them. Then I went to white chocolate. Now none of these felt like chocolate on our tongue but they gave me the sugar high I was desperate for when I ate the chocolate. Still working on sugar high but have gone back to chocolate in very small doses.
Note to self: Clean house mother comes to visit early tomorrow morning. Wash the thick socks. Moisture face mask couldn't hurt either oh and "Heroes" new season has started tonight.
Day 2
Tuesday 17 November, 2009. Not weighing myself yet.
6.40pm. Thunder is booming and the lightening strikes are eclectic. Wonderful display of natures raw emotions. Not much rain. Off I go much to husbands amazement who actually says "You're not going out in that". "Rain, hail or shine", I reply. To my utter amusement I'm really not comfortable with storms, but determined I trot, well really waddle with big butt off.
The wind is unbelievable but it was 35 degrees today so the droplets of rain and storming winds were truly welcome. I only jumped a little bit when the thunder roared. When arrived to the waterfront the stinging rain and ferrocious winds ensured that I did not stay a few seconds to look over the beautiful bay lights. I did a quick little talk to God and said I did it and help me to keep this up. (Catholic but not practising if you are wondering but always have little conversations with him time to time)
Beat my record of one day for time and proud and just a little wet. Feet still killing me.
Note to self: wear thicker socks and try to remember to ring podiatrist.
6.40pm. Thunder is booming and the lightening strikes are eclectic. Wonderful display of natures raw emotions. Not much rain. Off I go much to husbands amazement who actually says "You're not going out in that". "Rain, hail or shine", I reply. To my utter amusement I'm really not comfortable with storms, but determined I trot, well really waddle with big butt off.
The wind is unbelievable but it was 35 degrees today so the droplets of rain and storming winds were truly welcome. I only jumped a little bit when the thunder roared. When arrived to the waterfront the stinging rain and ferrocious winds ensured that I did not stay a few seconds to look over the beautiful bay lights. I did a quick little talk to God and said I did it and help me to keep this up. (Catholic but not practising if you are wondering but always have little conversations with him time to time)
Beat my record of one day for time and proud and just a little wet. Feet still killing me.
Note to self: wear thicker socks and try to remember to ring podiatrist.
Day 1
Monday 16 November, 2009. (124kgs) Oh God I can't believe I so fat.
6.30pm. (The animals as in family are fed and kids are bathed)
First walk. Husband is in shock as I say I'm going for a walk. He did not think I would do it and why should he every day I say I have to lose weight and exercise and go grab a pack of chips. Walk down to the waterfront and thank God for getting me there without taking heart attack first. Feel great doing this even though feet are killing me.
Limp back after 36 mins. swearing that I feel better to family and how lovely it was. Limp with sore feet (corns) to bathroom and have shower. Yep sure is great. Read to kids and clean up dinner and tuck kids and husband into bed. 8pm.
Put feet up and groan and moan till go to bed about feet.
Note to self: Pee before you start your walk and ring podiatrist to fix up feet.
6.30pm. (The animals as in family are fed and kids are bathed)
First walk. Husband is in shock as I say I'm going for a walk. He did not think I would do it and why should he every day I say I have to lose weight and exercise and go grab a pack of chips. Walk down to the waterfront and thank God for getting me there without taking heart attack first. Feel great doing this even though feet are killing me.
Limp back after 36 mins. swearing that I feel better to family and how lovely it was. Limp with sore feet (corns) to bathroom and have shower. Yep sure is great. Read to kids and clean up dinner and tuck kids and husband into bed. 8pm.
Put feet up and groan and moan till go to bed about feet.
Note to self: Pee before you start your walk and ring podiatrist to fix up feet.
It's time.
So I have started long service leave to be with the kids before eldest starts school. Went to the specialist and now on tablets to get rid of psoriasis. Could not take them before as was having darling children. Spent a glorious 2 weeks at Sunshine Coast and enjoying every bit of it even with the husband. Still have not forgiven for the "Unattractive statement". We decided the holiday would either make or break our marriage. After two weeks of relaxing and a bit of retail therapy on my part we decided to give it another year....yeahhh!!!! We actually do this every holiday..............
Came back from holidays and decided that it's time. I must start walking. Morbidly obese, corns on feet, mother visiting and a heatwave. What a great time to start.
Came back from holidays and decided that it's time. I must start walking. Morbidly obese, corns on feet, mother visiting and a heatwave. What a great time to start.
Another Adventure
"I just don't find you attractive anymore" replies my husband. Well that went straight to my heart and broke it. Then to add "But don't worry I don't find myself attractive right now either!". That apparently is to make me feel better. Duh!!!! Doesn't........
That was my answer when questioning the husband why aren't we making love anymore. The next day after pondering (okay rampaging and sulking alternatively with a little homicidal tendicies thrown in) I went back to him the next day. "Honey" I said, (starting off with a positive feel) "when you said you didn't find me attractive anymore what exactly do you find unattractive in me now. Is it my new found weight, my psoriasis or my new hairdo?"
"That's about it" he replies and then clutches his chest with both hands trying to pry the knife stuck between his rib cage with blood spewing all over the kitchen bench. Just joking on the stabbing part. He actually turned and finished making his coffee with toast in his mouth.
Truth be told I actually did not really like myself either. What happened over the winter season, did I really eat 20 kilos worth. Arh yeh I did. He actually has a point not that I will ever agree with him on the hair. It cost me (well actually us) $260.00 and looks fantastic. Luckily he doesn't know the actual cost of hair.
That was my answer when questioning the husband why aren't we making love anymore. The next day after pondering (okay rampaging and sulking alternatively with a little homicidal tendicies thrown in) I went back to him the next day. "Honey" I said, (starting off with a positive feel) "when you said you didn't find me attractive anymore what exactly do you find unattractive in me now. Is it my new found weight, my psoriasis or my new hairdo?"
"That's about it" he replies and then clutches his chest with both hands trying to pry the knife stuck between his rib cage with blood spewing all over the kitchen bench. Just joking on the stabbing part. He actually turned and finished making his coffee with toast in his mouth.
Truth be told I actually did not really like myself either. What happened over the winter season, did I really eat 20 kilos worth. Arh yeh I did. He actually has a point not that I will ever agree with him on the hair. It cost me (well actually us) $260.00 and looks fantastic. Luckily he doesn't know the actual cost of hair.
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